In the zone...the comfort zone

Comfort zone. Where most people like to be. Where I like to be. I like to know the details. I like to know what is going on, to feel comfortable. I, I, I. Are you catching my drift on all thos I's? Not that it has to be about me, but I just like to know. Here is an example...my leap of faith I took to go on the YP's beach trip...sure that was out of my comfort zone in many ways, BUT I sneakily turned it into a comfort zone. You see, Adam, my brother, is one of my comfort zones. He knows me...and he knew that I wouldn't go if he didn't...so I went because I had my comfort zone there. Sure, being in your own personal bubble is not a bad thing, but when you never step outside and put yourself in a position of vulnerability, you probably won't get too far. I am learning this. I have 2 levels of comfort zone/personal bubble. The personal bubble...I will begin there...touchy feely...that is not me, but I am slowly but surely changing that, and it feels great!! I think that it all spurned from insecurities that I have had, but let me just tell you that a hug can make all the difference...I actually would like one right now...okay people that know me, pick your jaw off the floor. My other level is as I stated before, I just like to know what is going on where I am going. Not someone who likes to be caught off guard. For the few people out there who have ever asked me out...and there are few...a "date" would be something out of my comfort zone...so I make excuses and never go...or I go, and am not me...I am quieter...and embarassed because I am not in my zone. Wow, I am really sharing my issues...HAHA. Anyway, I am learning and growing, and want to be put in situations where my comfort zone is not there, and where my bubble boundary is breached. When I really look at my life...I am only in situations I am comfy with...family business, live alone, I drive and never ride...holy smokes...control issues. O boy do I crack myself up. I am going to stop sharing now...you are seeing too much of me...and im getting uncomfy :)